由于喜欢文学,我心里树立着无数丰碑,那就是一个个文学界的前辈。我对他们的敬仰都是在反复阅读他们的作品时日益提升的,他们对我的营养也都是通过作品的媒介一点一滴地进行的。我始终没有和哪位大师级的文学前辈走得很近,倒不是没有接近他们的机会,而是每一次都因为我心里的不自信作怪,导致我终于飞也似地逃掉。比如那一年在北京见到王蒙先生,其实我有一肚子话要说,因为他是我在新时期读得最多的一位作家,像《青春万岁》《组织部新来的年轻人》这些旧作,像《海的梦》《夜的眼》《布礼》还有《坚硬的稀粥》这些实验性的作品,我是认真看过的,而且颇有心得,甚至好多段落我都是可以背下来的。尤其是我在82年读到的《关于中国作家的非学者化问题》一文,对我影响深远。可 Because I like literature, my heart set numerous monument, that is, a literary predecessors. My admiration for them is increasing as they read their works repeatedly, and their nutrition for me is also carried out bit by bit through the medium of works. I did not go very close with any great literary predecessor, but I did not have no chance of approaching them. Instead, I always ran away because of the disbelief in my heart. For example, when I met Mr. Wang Meng in Beijing in that year, in fact, I had a stomach to say because he was one of the authors I read the most in the new period. Some of the old books like “Young Man of Youth” and “New Youth from Organization Department” , Such experimental works like “The Dream of the Sea”, “The Eye of the Night,” “Bu Li”, and “Hard Gruel”, I have read carefully and have some experience, and I can even have a lot of paragraphs Down In particular, the article “Non-Scholars Issues on Chinese Writers” which I read in 82 years has a profound impact on me. can