给你写这封信的时候,我感到有几分困难。原由是此时此刻我必须真实地面对自己内心的痛苦,这种痛苦已经折磨了我好长一段时间,可我一直不愿承认和触及它,总是在躲避,不去认真考虑它。 向你倾吐内心的这些矛盾和烦恼,在我是付出了一定勇气的。 我在原单位担任了10年的“一把儿”,出入坐轿车,外出乘飞机,手下人成天围着转,请示汇报。大事小事虽说都要我操心,可这种忙这种累是一种享受。不久 When I wrote this letter to you, I felt a bit difficult. The reason is that at this moment I have to face up to the pain in my heart. This pain has tortured me for a long time. However, I have always been reluctant to admit and touch it. I am always avoiding and not seriously considering it. To pour out your heart these contradictions and troubles, I have given a certain courage. I was in the original unit for 10 years, “a handful of children”, out of the car, go out by plane, his men around the turn, ask for a report. Although I have to worry about important matters, but this kind of busy tired is a pleasure. soon