说来惭愧,在王小波去世前我只读过他的一篇文章,并且还是因为我的短文与他的大作发表在同一期杂志上。那篇文章没有引起我的特别注意。所以,当我在北京看到王小波的若干生前好友庄严地缅怀王小波时,我心中的好奇多于伤感。完全是为了与背景和谐一致,我才在脸上制造出些许悲痛来。后来王小波出入意料地声名大振,令我不得不重新评估他。不过,这种评估的背后多少隐藏着某种抗拒心理,因为我认为所有的名 Ashamed to say, I read only one of his articles before the death of Wang Xiaobo, and also because my essay was published in the same magazine as his masterpiece. That article did not attract my special attention. So when I saw Wang Xiaobo’s ex-friends in Beijing solemnly cherishing Wang Xiaobo, my curiosity was more than sadness. Completely in harmony with the background, I made a little grief on my face. Later Wang Xiaobo unexpectedly fame, so I had to re-evaluate him. However, there is some sort of resistance behind this assessment because I think all the names