我出身不好,父亲当过日伪职員。过去,我背着沉重的家庭包袱,总觉得不管自己怎样努力,領导上也是不会相信的。于是悲观失望,对前途不敢抱有什么希望,只要能掙錢吃飯就行了,干活也不願意出力气。 My birth is not good, my father was a fake employee. In the past, I was carrying a heavy burden on the family and always felt that no matter how hard I tried, leaders would not believe it. So pessimistic disappointment, do not dare hope for the future, as long as money can be earned on the line, work is not willing to contribute.