我已迈入古稀之年,虽然我在心理上和感情上还不服老,但自然的客观规律常常又使我想到自己快要缴饭票了,我的许多挚友和同事们都先我而去了。当然有些还未去的,有些比我年事高的也还健在,我这个古稀之年只是对我的晚辈们和青年们讲的,在那些老友和老同志面前,我不过是个小弟弟罢了。 艾砂兄嘱我写篇自传性的回忆录之类的文稿,这使我又激动又困惑,这不仅是恐怕自己写不好,而且也是因为自己掌握不了自己,钻入一些复杂的矛盾的牛角尖里去。……相传诗人北岛写过一首一字诗,诗的标题为“人生”,内容只有一个“网”字。初 I have entered an ancient age. Although I am still mentally and emotionally unbearable, the objective laws of nature often make me think that I am about to pay my meal, and many of my best friends and colleagues first went away . Of course, some have not yet gone, and some are still alive than I was. My age is only for my younger generations and young people. Before those old friends and old comrades, I was just a little brother. . Ai Xiong’s brother asked me to write an autobiographical memoir and other manuscripts, which made me excited and confused, not only because I could not write well, but also because I could not control myself and got into some complicated contradictions go with. ... ... According to legend, the poet Bei Dao wrote a poem, poem entitled “life”, the content is only one “net” word. early